I was raised the only child of wonderful parents. At one point in my life, I wanted to go into the Convent. I was to go out for several months to see if my vocation was true, when I met my husband. It was definitely God's will. I modeled for a time between the ages of 17 - 20, and found the vanity necessary for the job, too hard to bear, so I left the field. I was raised very strict, and would get slapped if I looked in the mirror too much, even at an early age. My grandmother had been in the Cabrini Convent before she left to care for her ailing mother. The illness extended over a period of years which is why my grandmother had to leave the convent. She raised her children with the values she learned in the convent, so her basics stayed with us. I was always a devout Catholic, and never missed mass. Life has it's ups and downs, and I was never alone. Some only children turn to an invisible friend, I always had Jesus.

Another thing you should know, is that at 52, I'm a baby-boomer; which means simply, that I was jitterbugging in 1959 to rock'n'roll, snapping my fingers to poetry in beatnik coffee houses with my Uncle, when I was 10 - 12, hence my love of writing poetry and painting, modeled mod in the middle '60's, and freaked when they said Paul was dead in '69. So, I was a jitterbug, a beatnik, mod, and a hippie, all in the space of one decade. I mention this, because you'll notice some diversified tastes in music, etc., all accountable to my adolescence. Back then, though, it was all good clean fun, and people respected other people, and almost everyone had the fear of God in them, thanks to their parents.

Now I'll tell you how I became a Catholic Charismatic. (Which incidentally means that I am born-again. I'm still very much a devout Catholic, only now I walk with the Lord moment to moment).

Today we face a crossroad. With all the Christian Religions out there, it's difficult to be sure we are following the path the Lord is leading us to. It's difficult also, discerning which of our thoughts are our own and which are from God. However, it's usually a good sign, when we are drawn closer to our Father in Heaven. "What inspires us toward God, is of God, and what takes us away from God, is not of God".

Many years ago, I came to a crossroad. I was going to leave the Catholic faith, to join another religion. I was thirsting at the time, and praying for a sign from God to lead me. The people in this other church, were pressuring me for an answer, and they said they'd give me one month to make up my mind. Well, for one month I prayed hard, asking God to give me a sign as to what He wanted me to do. Up to that point, I was a devout Roman Catholic. I was married and had an infant son. I continued to pray for a sign, getting more desperate with my prayers, as the time was approaching fast when I'd have to give these people an answer.

On the Sunday before I was to meet with them, I went to Sunday mass as usual. My son was only two months old at the time, and after mass, I'd dart out the door of the church, to get home to my baby, who was at home with my husband. This particular Sunday though, a woman who was standing behind me, started talking to me. As we spoke, a young gentleman approached us, and asked me to please forgive the intrusion, but he had to speak to me. He said that even though he didn't know me, he'd seen me in church, and for some unexplained reason the Lord was compelling him speak to me. He felt awkward approaching me, so he prayed for a sign that it was truly God's will that he approach me. He never had an opportunity to approach me before, because I'd dash out of the church so fast, so he asked God that if He really wanted this to happen, I'd for some reason stay, after mass was over. I was detained by the woman behind me, and so he approached me with the news that God wanted me to remain in the Catholic faith. That God knew that I was thirsting in my faith for more knowledge. (I graduated public schools and had no formal catholic education up to that point, except for catechisms for Holy Communion and Confirmation). He said that the Lord was leading him to tell me that I should start attending the weekly prayer meetings of the Catholic Charismatic Renewal. I told the young man that he had no idea just how glad I was that he acted out in faith. I told him about my prayers and that I was about to make the biggest mistake of my life. I told him that this had to be the sign I'd prayed for, and what a sign it was.

The year was 1972.

I went to my first prayer meeting that very Wednesday, and entered the church a little late. The people were all sitting around in a circle holding hands, with their eyes closed. Then they began speaking and singing in a strange language. I backed up against the wall, so as not to be seen. I thought, "this is a coven of witches, and they are going to sacrifice me, as a lamb being led to the slaughter". I ran out as fast as I could.

The following Sunday after mass, I ran into a dear priest who has since passed, God Bless his soul, and who brought Charismatic Renewal to our church, St. Irenaeus, in Philadelphia. His name was Father Summers, an angel; he approached me and asked me why I wasn't at the prayer meeting. I told him that I did go, but that I heard them chanting or something, and that it frightened me. He told me to go home and read "Acts" in the Bible. Well, I'm sorry to say that I didn't own a bible at that time. So, that Monday morning I went out to buy one, and promptly looked up "Acts". Acts 2:3; "Then they (the apostles), saw what looked like tongues of fire which spread out and touched each person there. They were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to talk in other languages. The Spirit enabled them to speak."

Well, I learned something, and from that moment on, I read the bible, and attend the weekly prayer meetings. We've attended many classes on bible study and theology. There were seminars and baptisms. I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. I learned my Catholic faith. I learned too, that it isn't a sin to love our Blessed Mother. That God chose her to be the mother of His Son. No matter what else you do believe, believe this: The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit would not be very pleased if you didn't love and respect the mother of Jesus Christ.

There was a time, when I was afraid to show my affection for the Blessed Mother. I was afraid that God would think I was worshipping her above Him. However, I know that I keep God first and foremost, that I adore Him above all else. Our Blessed Mother inspires us toward God. Remember, "what inspires us toward God, is of God..."

Here, let me add something for some of my friends who are skeptical about Charismatic Renewal, and who say, "it's not for me". Basically, Charismatics are people who want to know Jesus more closely, live with Him more deeply, who thirst, and whose thirsts are quenched with the living water. We don't shout, or dance around, or act out loudly or make others uncomfortable. That is something individuals do if that's the type of person they are. We're very quiet. We pray. We constantly pray and praise the Lord for all He's given us. We are joyful for the privilege of being chosen to be children of God. We do however, speak out loud when we praise and thank the Lord. i.e.: Praise and thank You, Lord for Your Divine Mercy, and for loving us unconditionally. Just as we speak out loud when we ask God for healing's, favors, and special intentions. We are not ashamed of the fact that we love and adore God, and we don't care who knows it. There's nothing to be ashamed of. We are rejuvenated by coming together and praying in a group for one another and for others. Actual healing's are claimed. It's very powerful. But then anything is possible for the Lord. We are passionate people who basically pray for others. "Love others as I have loved you."

I attended weekly prayer meetings, (thank God for them), for almost 30 years. I have two sons, Robby, and Joshua. My husband of 46 years, Gus, is now retired as am I. Since moving to NJ some 15 years ago, I worked full time during the day, and built Web sites for Jesus at night. I became an Eucharistic Minister and a lector at my parish in NJ. I was made an Evangelist of the Catholic Church in 1992.

I help to shepherd God's sheep. All I want to do is praise and thank the Lord. Invite Him to enter your house. "Where two or more gather in My name, I shall be in their midst". Be Jesus for one another...He loves us sooo much.